Monday, March 7, 2011

It's Gym Time


I love being a Mummy. I love it more then anything in the world. I love my girls. I love my Husband and I love my life. But... there is one thing that I don't like about my life. And... that is the baby weight I have been left with after having both my girls. 

I haven't really discussed my weight and the fact that I need to loose alot of weight to get to my pre baby weight, or better yet, a healthy weight. I think there is alot of people on my blog roll that are starting the same journey as me. I enjoy reading and following their journey and getting any hints and tips along the way. Seeing their progress is very inspiring.

Me, what's my story? 

Well, pre babies, I was a fit and healthy size 12. I used to frequent the gym 5 days a week {doing classes and cardio and weights} and sometimes on a Saturday if I was up early. I also had a personal trainer 1 day a week. I watched what I ate and drank and really cared and looked after myself. I was a self motivator and enjoyed exercising.

Post babies, well, I am a completely different person. I am far from a size 12. I don't do any regular exercise (I did start doing a boot camp training session which was once a fortnight) aside from chasing around my kids. I certainly don't watch what I eat. I eat what is fast and convenient and take away. Most days I try to eat 3 meals a day but some days this is hard. I snack on anything that is in the cupboard. Muesli bars, Tiny teddies, Cheese and biscuits.   Some days I just couldn't be bothered....tired and lazy!

Unfortunately, I am one of those girls who piles on the weight when pregnant. Mainly due to the sickness and craving all the naughty foods. My major weakness was Chocolate with both pregnancies. And, the cravings only came on at the later stages of the pregnancies so thats when all the weight piled on. 

So, I am taking steps to change my life. I need to start caring about me and start looking after myself as good as I do my girls and Husband. Stop putting myself last all the time. I need to be a little bit selfish and get some me time. Even if that is when I am running on the treadmill.

My first step was to change my eating habits. So, I have been on a healthy eating plan for 2 weeks and have lost 2kgs thus far (yayee me). 

Step 2 is joining up at my old gym. I headed there tonight and whilst there I put in some time on the treadmill and did a class also.

I felt so guilty leaving Adam during a peak time in this house with dinner and bath time. To help and ease my mummy guilt I had did what I could to ensure it was an easy take over. I had vegies cut up ready to go in the fridge for dinner as well as other parts of dinner organised. I made up Dinners for Charlotte for 3 days. I layed out PJ's etc etc...

When Adam came home and it was time for me to go. I was dressed and my bag was packed ready to go. Charlotte was having her afternoon nap so I only had to say good bye to Bella. I hate saying good bye. It's always an emotional thing for me especially when I am leaving to do me stuff. It is never easy. As I popped in the car I look at the front door and there is my darling husband and gorgeous daughter blowing me kisses *tears*. I drove off teary but a little proud that I was making a positive change in my life.

Walking back into that gym was weird. It was so familiar nothing had really changed and I felt like I did when I first joined up. I felt like I had never left! I felt pumped, energised I was ready to exercise.

It was very hard seeing my reflection in the mirror. It certainly has changed alot since last time I was in that gym. It was also hard doing the class and seeing myself struggle. I used to be one of the people down the front bouncing around. Now I am hiding at the back and struggling to complete the entire class, watching the clock and praying that the hour of torture would fly by.

But, a big part of changing my life is facing the real me. I think that this is exactly what I needed to see. I now know that I need to be doing this. I need to change my life.


Mel said...

Ooh Leesa - I could have almost written this post - except for the part about actually getting back to the gym! I keep telling myself that I need to get back into an exercise routine, but something always seems to come up and stop me. I saw photos of myself during our house renovations a few weeks ago and I was devastated - I still think of myself as the person I was pre-kids, and to see that I'm not was very hard. Hopefully I can get back into something soon - you just might be my motivation!!

Leesa said...

Mel its so hard isn't it :( It's like we pile on the weight just when life gets busy with limited time.

I just had to do it. I am not happy with my weight. I don't want my girls growing up with my weight issues and seeing me struggle and look so uncomfortable in my own skin.

I was having too many melt downs with clothes not fitting me and the fat girls clothes are horrid. Very limited and or the semi nice ones are sooooo expensive!

For me.... It was time :)

Maybe once your renos settle down maybe you might be able to sneak away to get some exercise done. It is hard to find the motivation also. But when it's time you will do it.

A Country Wife said...

Oh you are so right Leesa, we could have written each other's posts about this! I'm so excited for you, the time out to take care of ourselves is so vital. Well done on already losing 2kgs! I look forward to following your weight loss journey. Mine is in hiatus at the moment, I'm just concentrating on getting enough sleep to survive.....


Leesa said...

Chrissy it's so hard! I am lucky that I am getting sleep so it does make it a little easier. It is hard though at the end of the day to find the energy to go to the gym for a few hours and not to mention do those hidiously active classes that I have been doing. My god! I am struggling lol

I hope things settle down for you soon so you can continue your journey.

For what it's worth... I think you look fabulous and you DON'T look over weight at all... That goes for you to Mel!!

Alicia (The Red Deer) said...

Good on you Leesa! I too am trying to lose weight - I am *very close* to my pre-pregnancy weight now but even before I was pregnant I was over weight so I have 11kg to lose to be my healthy weight again.

My difficulties is that I can't get out without Grace - so exercise is either a walk with the girls or something at home. And I am an emotional eater - and obviously I am very emotional at the moment. Hopefully I can get the eating under control and then I will be on my way!

Leesa said...

Alicia I think you have done such an awesome job! I have been reading all about it and VERY envious at how close you are to your pre pregnancy weight!

I totally understand your difficulties. Even with that you have managed to do so well....

Keep at it. You will get there!! x

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